Layers and layers

11:03:00 AM




People, I have discovered, are layers of secrets. You believe you know them, that you understand them, but their motives are always hidden from you, buried in their own hearts. You will never know them, but sometimes you decide to trust them.

After a long and hectic week full of uncertainty and disappointment with politics, work, stuff.. weird situation with some friends... of course insomnia came back to me and I woke up several times in the middle of nightmares. What started as a challenge in politics is turning into repression and looks it's getting heavier, while the European Union is just closing its eyes. The Spanish government acting once more as if we were under a full dictatorship, this time went too far up to the point they suspended the self-government of Catalonia, arrested officials, threatened many people and listed public institutions as suspicious, blocking financial accounts and therefore leaving thousands without pay day. My worries started to come in line and I am overwhelmed with sadness and worry to the extent I even considered leaving my apartment and look for a job in a private corporation.. but NO! I love my job, my city, my apartment... I worked my a* off to make my way up here and have the life I want. In short, the government destroyed in just a couple of days all the rights that people have worked for during centuries. Bravo, Spain. 

While this is the heaviest of my worries, I had some weird situations with some friend too. That was also a push over the edge. When it's the second time you are disappointed in someone you thought you could trust for anything and relied on. Stubborn and independent person that I am, all I did was rage out at home and prepare revenge internally accepting no help. Little did I know a simple coffee and long talk with an old friend was just what I needed to disconnect from it all....



xx
lau.

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10 comments to blue my mind

  1. It's always good to talk. And the wonder properties of a hot beverage and a good listener is priceless.

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  2. Oh my goodness, that sounds like insanely rough week. I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this :-) It's always good to talk :-)

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  3. Wow, I didn't realize the troubles in Spain. My thoughts are with you. Politics and personal problems, especially when occurring at the same time, can be overwhelming.

    Keep talking it out with people. I hope comfort finds you.

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  5. That must have been a pretty rough week for you.
    But you know what, I believe that everything happens for some reason and from all those situations you will learn something from it. It will make you stronger. And don't give up.
    Sending you lots of love!

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  6. Catch-ups with old friends is the best remedy for anything! I've had a bundle of worries pile up and up over the past month and felt suffocated by it all. Then out of the blue yesterday, one of my best friends (who's recently travelled through America, so we weren't in contact as much) reached out to me now that she's settled back home. Chatting to her (aka writing novels of explanation) was the best thing ever, and exactly what I needed!

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  7. I am praying things improve soon. We are all here to support.

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  8. Omg!! This must have been a really tough week for you. I pray things would get better soon ❤❤❤
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  9. You have for sure had a hard week. I hope the upcoming one will be better! It’s good to talk or write things through, at least for me it often helps.

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  10. Sounds like you have been going through a trying time! I am glad catching up with a friend helped, sometimes just having someone to talk to can change everything

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